Craziest thing happened to me tonight… I opened up!
There is not a single human being that I have confided in as much as I have this man tonight. The craziest thing is, we’re not even friends to that capacity, but he was the listening ear right at the moment needed it most. I believe I have a good circle of people around me, but even them I have never disclosed such depth in what really keeps me up at night.
The past few months I have been on a steady road towards depression and in the last 2 weeks I plummeted. I suppress my emotions so much I convince myself I’m okay in order to fool all of those around me.
Depression is a horrible thing and I have cried myself to sleep possibly every night for the past 2 weeks at least. It’s such a dark place and you feel so alone, no one should have to feel like that. I had moments where I understood why people jump in front of trains, and i’d be lying if I said for a split second it never crossed my mind. What stopped me from actually doing it? I found my why. If you don’t have a why, find one. Everyone needs purpose and a reason to live, otherwise it makes things like depression way to easy to take over your life.
My why? I’ve got so much more to give!
I now know that in order to be strong you need to tackle your battles, crown first;
Cry… it’s okay!
Talk… it’s okay!
Trust… it’s okay!
Expect the unexpected because nothing meaningful happens within your comfort zone. Speak up, because I PROMISE you, you’re not alone. Make-Up your mind is an amazing facebook platform which enables people to just talk to people who get it.
Stay Queening 👑
p.s; I promise to try and post more often ❤